I just want you all to know that I post everyday... I'm diligent about it- crazy even. Every little thing that happens, random thoughts, cute things my kids say, fun photo ops... I blog it all... extensively... trouble is, it's only in my head.
I'm currently ignoring a fussy baby to type this little tid-bit... I have hopes of blogging tomorrow- actually that would technically be later today as it's 12:30 am and Matthew just got home from work and little one just woke up- we've had a rough night- tears have been shed by everyone... well, unfortunately not everyone. I swear I'm constipated. Before you think that was "T.M.I" let me explain. I need to have a really good, solid, can't catch your breath, pushed to the edge of vomiting, headache inducing, tired for days afterward, truly cathartic sob session.... I seem to be on the brink of tears all of the time lately, not depressed, just emotional. Trouble is- the tears well up, but never spill over into the catharsis that I need them to be... so I've aptly named the condition "emotional constipation." But I don't know of any emotional laxatives- the last time I felt this way the breaking point was a serious melt down on my kids during a cleaning session with much yelling and throwing away things forcefully for effect... I don't ever want to do that again- not a behavior I care to repeat... but that was probably 2 years ago and it was the last really "
good" cry I can remember... Anyway--- until later today (I hope)...